10/6/09

A time to be dead!

I want to express my opinion about a certain issue that I'm contemplating about for quite a while.

Lets just say that I belong to the certain subculture or scene known as "goth" for masses. What I find and actually is as a meter of fact interesting is how much one person can let it's life be define by a certain stereotype. What exactly do you find as understanding by the rather shallow word "goth"? Various different sources will give you various different reasons that, actually don't have to do anything with one another.

"Dead is the new Alive" as nicely put by what seems to be the newest burst in the subculture, Emilie Autumn.
"When the obsession with death becomes the way of life"

We all can talk for days explaining how from the beginning of human origin, everyone was obsessed with death , and that is a fact. For that meter I have trouble understanding why "goths" like to think they're different, obsessing about death is pretty conformist, so if "death" is the main course of the whole goth movement , and the main idea behind it all - count me out.

Gothic fiction (sometimes referred to as Gothic horror) is a genre of literature that combines elements of both horror and romance. As a genre, it is generally believed to have been invented by the English author Horace Walpole, with his 1764 novel The Castle of Otranto.
(more on wikipedia )

Nicer and certainly clearer approach but does everything have to be "grotesque" and/or "horroristic" and fucking bloody? - As much as I love things that have obscure and macabre feel to them I don't see them as crucial but certainly we're getting close.

Gothic fashion is a clothing style worn by members of the Goth subculture; a dark, sometimes morbid, eroticized fashion and style of dress.[1] Typical Gothic fashion includes black dyed and crimped hair, bright lips and black clothes.[1] Both male and female goths sometimes wear dark eyeliner and dark fingernails. Styles are often borrowed from the Punks, Victorians and Elizabethans. BDSM imagery and paraphernalia are also common.
(more on wikipedia )

Whoever wrote this description in on as I like to call it weenkipedia is pretty right. That's what the mass usually thinks when you mention the word "goth" and it's been recently majorly excepted within the subculture it self. As for how accurate i find it to be, i think it's just fine but having a dog chocker, dyed black hair, eyeliner and boots doesn't make you "goth" by it self.

When you become to find yourself attracted to a certain subculture it's understandable that you would first majorly explore it but you should have some limit to how much you take and how much you give to it. When one has been in the subculture for a while he/she tends to have certain "trademarks" which he finds as his/her symbols, they might not be as "unique" but they become something you put on yourself as a ritual. The same individual has his own finding of what the subculture is for him/her and most of the time an "old school goth" don't tend to consider him/herself as one. Why is that so?

As time goes by more and more people "enter" the subculture and most of them bring new elements to it, which is fine 'cos evolution is natural. The problem is to where it evolves. Take the music genre for example. at the beginning it was more or less all meant as a funny take on what the majority thought of as disturbing. Trough time influenced by classical music gothic rock went more metal and now a girl singing with bunch of metalheads is what most people think is "gothic metal" . There is so much more to it then that but I really don't want to start number all the various genres that in the period from late 1970's till now became largely excepted as "goth" .
The iconography has also changed. I really don't know has anyone from the "new generation" actually hared of Siouxsie Sioux,Rozz Williams,Peter Murphy,? Those were the people who set the fucking standards you're leaving by and you don't even freaking know their names. They popularized BDSM fashion, eroticism, deep voices, vampiric aestheticism and DECADENCE which is what goth has become all about by now ( I really hope that all the babybats reading this by now know the meaning of that word). Gosh even "Merilyn Manson" is becoming more old school every day ( I really hope everybody realizes my sarcasm when I say this) .

Now, it's understandable that one doesn't want to consider them self as "goth" when it has become this : http://vampirefreaks.com/

I leave it at that.


For what I find as definition of the word, which by the way I really don't like but let me go with the flow and except this for this occasion :

Bearer of the adjective known as "goth" for the masses is certified to have good understanding of the macabre and obscure, art, glam, punk. Knows how to canalize his/her decadence trough a certain art medium and furthermore has a good sense of humor ;)


Disclaimer: This are my subjective thoughts about this issue, you may agree and/or disagree with it. Thank you.

7/20/09

Zagreb Coffee

Well hello! I just finished my first cup of coffee for today and figured i should write something here on my precious little blog.

The time on Exit was great. I saw a lot of interesting acts starting with Korn, Deathstars, Orthodox Celts, but far more interesting were the small ones like Faderhead. I really enjoyed Faderhead and afterwords I even had the chance to meet the guy and say how fun his act was. Certenly there were far more interesting things than just the music ;)

By now I'm in Zagreb. The weather is nice, not too hot. I hope I can get to do some drawings and all. I feel like I heaven't done anything worth showing in ages.



7/7/09

Of to EXTI 2009

In about an hour I'm off to Belgrade from where I shall go to Novi Sad, where this fabulous music festival is held. The begs are all ready my socks are clean and my hair is just right. Of I go !


7/3/09

Bettephile Madness

Once again my day swamped places with my night so tough it's 7 am right now it's like 11 pm for me -_-' .
Haven't been creative lately. Organizing my summer. In few days I'm going to EXIT FESTIVAL which is held in Novi Sad, Serbia. I sure look forward to seeing my favorite trashy industrial Death Stars O(≧∇≦)O !!! After EXIT FEST. which lasts for 4 days I'm going back home (to Skopje,MK) and then in few days I'm off to Zagreb (Cro) which I really look forward two. Haven't seen my crazy Croatian friends in a while (*^^)^*) ☆Chu!!

About my "drawing" activities as I said my creativity is at a minimum ―(T_T)→ サクッ , and as much as I try to finish the painting of the wonderful EA , I simply seem to make her no justice ">(´~`) むにゃむにゃ ...

Just few days before I found about this really cool gothabilly/dark cabaret band , Salon Betty . They really rock and I've been listening to them nonstop \(>o<)/ .




P.S. Sorry if I'm getting annoying with the Japanese smiles , I'm just so addicted to them ( ̄▽ ̄)

P.P.S. Just for the once who are wandering , no my obsession with Squall is not ending...I just haven't found the right chara to pair him with (T_T)

6/20/09

Emilija Jesen WIP

20 minutes back I opened photoshop 'cos I haven't done any cging in a while and started doodling and this came out lolz. Her eye IS SO FREAKING BIG I know I'll try and improve it but after a while this gets boring as you can see this is still work in progress (God knows when I'll open this and finish it )



ah well


P.S. Emilija Jesen is just the Croatian synonym for Emilie Autumn

Simple joys of randomness

Just random sketches waiting to be posted on my blog ...


Squall YEEY! :D

This is supposed to be denied although he's bearably recognizable sob.sob. Talk about killing your own OC >_< ' ...

Forgive me for this but I just had to introduce my dear plushbabies to you >w< . Say hello yo my dear AIDS Dolphin and Furado the 2nd (his cousin has disappeared on our last excursion to the woods)




6/19/09

Fanart Time!

Well as you may or may not have noticed I decided to move my precious little blog from the all well programmed, well designed and more professional VOX to the simplest of simple, low budget looking Blogspot. One may ask why would I ever do that, but the reason, or the reasons if you will, for that particular "movement" are quite simple. For one on VOX I don't get much feedback 'cos most of the viewers I get do not have VOX and the shitty angine needs you to have an account so you can add your responce. Ahh well. Next it's the layout thing. On VOX I could only change the banner and I really want to have my own layout (altough I haven't made one for this eather but it's in progress :D ). Well I guess there are more things but they are not of much importance. And then again I could have made a Wordpress blog which is reasonbly the best choise yet I would have to pay so I can edit the CSS. My third choice was LiveJournal but that shit is not very well organized, at least not in my opinion. And so that leaves Blogspot. ( I wander how much this will least)

Just reacently I started playing Kingdom Hearts 2. That game really ROCKS. I always new it was cool since I had the version for GBA but on Playstation2 it's so fucking great! I mean the perfect mach of FF characters and Disney it's like OH YEAH! And yes I started playing Final Fantasy X which is a fine game but after playing a whole lot of KH2 I really am not as impresed as I was when I played FFX with my friend back in grade school. Even so I felt I could draw a fanart of my favourite FFX character, Lulu. Oh I really dig Lulu , she's such a motherfuckinga ass kicking biach :B